Training for a marathon or any running event is a test of physical and mental strength. I’ve never been a runner, but after training to run my first marathon in 2008, I fell in love with the sport. In November 2010, I ran my 5th half-marathon. One month later I had emergency brain surgery to remove a two-inch tumor. This blog is about my journey to get back into the physical and mental shape I was in so I can continue my long distance running and ultimately get to run another marathon.
The last couple weeks has been filled with ups and downs,
but that is t normal with endurance running.There are ups where you have a great run and you feel like
you can go for miles and miles at a pace you had no idea you could run. And,
when you’re down, they feel really down. You feel like you can barely complete
this run and the pace is much slower than you’d like.It’s after one of these down days that it’s difficult to get
out for a run the following day. You’re convinced the run is going to be as terrible
as your last run.
With the new flu strain being as aggressive as ever and
working in the standard office Petri dish, I’ve been more anxious than normal
about germs. (The anxiety is actually a result of my time spent in the ICU in
2010.) In the early parts of the month, I was stocking up on sleep. My need not to get the flu was an excuse to stay in bed.
Last week, I looked at my kitchen calendar and I realized that my next half
marathon was less than a month away. I wasn’t running consistently so I wasn’t
accustomed to running on tired legs and I have little base. What I do
have is the knowledge that I can run a half marathon and now that I have the
taste of quitting in my mouth from my crash and burn from Long
Beach half marathon in 2011, signing up and not completing a half is something
I don’t want to repeat. I was a little concerned because my longest run in
months is 6 miles. That’s less than half the distance and that 6 is no
match for the hills of Pasadena!
I was running pretty consistently for the week of January 20th.
I was feeling the high, especially after bonding with a friend over their
sudden interest in running. A down came when I had to get to the office early
and I slept in too much to get the run in I wanted. I nearly bagged it, but I
threw on my running apparel & set out the door. I got in just over a mile,
which included 3 hill repeats on a gentle hill. (And, doing just a little over a mile turned out to be an up.) Looking at my kitchen calendar, I realized that I was not
only going to have to be creative with the training, I was going to
have to be aggressive.With all my
other halves, I had time to taper. With this one, I was going to have to train
through, meaning each weekend long run would increase from 7 (this past weekend), to 8 following, 9
the week after that and then I have my half (13.1 miles)! Most training plans
suggest that you increase your weekly mileage at 10%. It has been pointed out
to me at some point if you don’t run and then start running, you are increasing
your weekly mileage by more than 10%, so using that theory, while it may not be
sound, I’m going for broke and going from 10 miles a week to 15 or more.
Topographical Map of Pasadena- The closer the lines get the more hilly it becomes.
Watching the Rose Parade, one might think that Pasadena is flat. It’s not.It’s chock full of hills, which is one
reason why I’ve been doing hill repeats even if they are on gentle hills. My big
training run was filled with ups and downs. This weekend, I hit the Burbank Reservoir,
in the foothills of Mt. Lee for my aggressive training.I parked my car. Hopped out and after a
half mile of virtually flat packed dirt, the hills descended in front of me
like a giant monolith. If I were driving, I wouldn’t take a standard shift car,
but this is why I chose this area. I ran one hill and then some neighborhoods.
Then, it was off to do hill repeats. My GPS watch tells me that the hill I
picked was half-mile long. On my second ascent, I already made friends. On my
third trip, I had a cheering section and my hip flexors were very sore. By the
time I was on my fourth my water was nearly empty and my new friends were gone.
I still had more miles to cover but knew I wouldn’t be able to keep going if I
ran out of water. I descended the hill and found some flatter h area. I pushed
to make sure I could get my 7, with only a mouthful of water when I got back. I
promptly downed the extra water I had in my truck, vowing I would plan better
for next weekend’s run. This week was nearly a 20% increase from the first week
in January, but with 3 weeks remaining before my race, I need more hills and
more miles if my ego is going to be able to tackle what lies ahead of me on
The close of a year and the birth of another always gives one
time for reflection. We say goodbye to bad habits and with resolve say hello to
new ones that will carry us to a better life. We must remember that the root of
resolution is RESOLVE. Too often people view resolutions as more of a “I’m
going to try to do (a particular task), if it gets too hard, it’s okay if I
stop.”About 7 years ago, I joined
a goal group based off of a Flash
Forward seminar I took. We encouraged each other to speak in concrete
terms. We traded resolution, and replaced it with goal.
These last two years have been more difficult than I
anticipated. I look back to the person I was in early 2010. I was filled with
goals and ambition. The brain tumor made it easy to work hard at work and work
hard on projects when I got home and only sleep 6.5 hours a night. After
surgery, life stopped being so efficient.I needed lots of sleep to heal. Now, my sleep rhythm has returned to a typical
8-hour night of sleep. I’m losing 1.5 hours of efficiency daily by having a
normal sleep pattern. I’m frustrated. Despite this frustration, I’m filled with
excitement for the future and my productivity. Goal no longer feels like an
appropriate term for the way I have defined 2013.
On my cabinet above my coffee maker, I have my 2013 Assertions. It is a list of
daily non-negotiables and below that, long-term objectives. A business wouldn’t
enter a new fiscal year without clearly defining how they will meet their
goals, and neither should I. By seeing the assertions daily, I am constantly
reminded what my objectives are.
The past two years while difficult have been good. I had the
misdiagnosis of brain cancer and have over come the anxiety of that and the
other misdiagnosis for the need for a second surgery. With those, I went back
to my day job and got promoted; ran two half marathons; wrote a commercial for
a dating site; wrote an 8-minute short film (still to be shot); & spent
lots of time with friends. While I still struggle with PTSD, and need to
concentrate on over-all health (who doesn’t), healing is no longer my primary
objective.I can now focus the way
I have in years past on setting and achieving my assertions. I accept I am not
the same person I was. I cannot weep for the person I lost and I cannot berate
myself for not being the person I expected myself to be. We learn from each
struggle we face.I have learned
sleep is important and I have learned to I need shake out the chaff of daily
life to get to my objective. I have
written my map and I am excited for what