I’m struggling with that diet. I have more slips than
successes. In general, I do better when I’m given suggestions for success rather than a strict diet. The strict diet makes me like an obstinate child. I'm sad... AND I know a chocolate chip cookie recipe by heart. Ok, I'll make a quick half-batch. This is no way
to get to my rhythm skinny.* (Rhythm skinny, a term I've given ballroom dancers who do Latin styles in skimpy outfits.) One friend delicately pointed out, "Rhythm Skinny"was a goal in the beginning of the summer. The gentle reminder helped me reframe that I was trying these limited diets for myself rather than doing it for society or someone else. But, with heartache that is too deep to describe for a fitness & exercise blog, staying on track and honoring my original goal has been more difficult, especially when I know the chlorate chip cookie recipe by heart. Besides, dieting is no fun. My family doesn’t
diet well. We do best eating sensibly and the exercising. I’d rather do that.
Focus on physical things I like to do, rather than deprivation.
Exercising and eating while working for yourself is tough. I was pumped about producing a horror short with a very talented director. But, since he didn’t feel comfortable signing a contract guaranteeing me pay, I’m walking away. I
can work for myself, investing time in my own projects and have a better Return On Investment of time. In exciting
news, an oncologist I’ve worked with approached me to help build his
neurogenetics center, so when posed with the question: Would you rather produce
a horror short or help find a cure for cancer, my answer will always be: Help
find a cure for cancer.
The next couple months will be busy. October has 2 weddings and
at the end of the month I have my dance showcase where my routine is nearly full
bronze with some silver patterns thrown in. I have a 10k in November and then
holiday races. With the new projects and a wonderful relationship coming to an
end, my heart and mind are all over the place. I’ve been using the Hal Higdon
off and on, but I needed a better focus. I’m nearly starting from square one
again. It seemed appropriate to bring out the big guns and use the training
schedule that was specifically designed for me by my first coach. The early
miles are short, but he has lots of cross training built in. (The cross-training will be great for ballroom dance and/or weights.) While Ryan had to move to MSP for work, I’m
loving using this. I feel like I have him looking over my shoulder. This with a
modified diet program from my former roommate and Italian trainer, I feel rejuvenated. Everything will have to be recalibrate. I'll have to remind myself while it's okay to be sad, sugar will not be the million dollar pill to make everything okay.
